I float,
Standing on solid soil—
I melt,
Floating on icebergs.
Sometimes
There is no word
That exists
To wrap around this feeling.
It is too free-form,
Grand,
Expansive,
Enlarging beyond comprehension.
The word is lost
Inside my trachea, hanging.
How can you find something
You will never see?
I never want to find it —
To trap such a beautiful monster
Is
Murder
At the highest degree—
The body still continues to be, enclosed
Behind bars,
But the soul, the spirit
Decays slowly.
Suffocated,
Deprived,
Sucked out of life.
They say starvation is an awful way to die;
You feel your body loss control—
It cannot think like it used to
I cannot hold, move, run, lift,
It weakens until
Every little movement
Is torture,
Every temperature change
Is excruciating agony.
Then,
Euphoria hits.
Signaling the end,
The body’s defeat. Flag raised.
You giggle yourself to death.
Guess I am not near my doom,
No euphoria.
Still emotions
Without words,
Incomprehensible.
Still tears without reason,
Still reason without motive,
Motive
Without
Fuel.
Calm amidst chaos,
Turmoil beneath peace,
Imperfection under the perfection.
Perhaps it is good
That my world
Strikes at dissenting chords,
So breathtaking,
Grotesque
And beautiful.
Perhaps it means
There is still much to know,
Feel,
Much to never know.
The cycle
Is evolving backward.
I am a newborn again,
Two years old,
Four,
Standing on a Bronx avenue,
Stray cats, stores, people,
Streets of age, history, imperfection.
A world anew.
So raw, yet so embedded in the soil of the deceased
That roamed this land.
I flourished
Starting from those dingy steps,
And again I bloom
From its sister stairs.
I breathe this world, these cultures
Mixing,
Molding,
Creating.
I smile, and say
Yes,
Thank you
For giving me
Life.
Wow, this was beautiful. I’ve not seen death described in such a positive way too!
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Thanks so much Dean!
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amazing, you really took me away. weird, i feel like that most of the time, thank you for being the soul you are
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Aw thank you Stef ❤
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Beautiful!!!
Even the negatives describes positively! !
Great writting.
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Thanks! 😉
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Wow! This really shows death in a different light. It’s kinda haunting, but effective.
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Thank you 🙂
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Love it. Keep it up^^
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Thanks!!!
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Tears without reason. I think everyone has experienced that, yes?
Painful and confusing, especially when we are young.
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Yes very true!
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